Numen

I reached for you, 
Even though distance shook
My strength,
But nothing found I
In the cold night set before me. 
Then, you came
With the weight of your glory
You came, filling the space
Behind and before
You came, in the pressure and terror
Of all that you are.
In half, bent, blood boiled silent scream
You came, like a rambling man
Like a stallion heaving and stamping, 
Snorting and kicking at my disbelief, 
You came, not speaking, not gently,
But in tremendum;
I was not the shore, but the water you swelled within, 
You rolled me, from my depths to shallows, 
Your constant wake whitecapped
My soul. 
God, augustum 
Spirit, mysterium
Torrens voluptatis

Timothy Willard is the author of five books, including Longing For More: Daily Reflections on Finding God in the Rhythms of Life and the forthcoming The Life-Giving Adventure of Chasing Beauty (Eerdmans, 2019). He has collaborated on over 20 books and has written, consulted and served as spiritual director for organizations such as Chick-fil-A, Catalyst, Q Ideas and Praxis Labs. When he’s not riding the trails in the Appalachian mountains you can find him by the fire with his three daughters and his wife making up stories about Tom the back yard badger. He lives somewhere in the south Charlotte woods.